Day 57: Or 59 if you're counting...

I know I've been a bit erratic with the posting lately. The last few days have been a little time for a lot of thought. And the thing about thoughts, well at least mine anyway, is that they move quick.

Been reassessing, rethinking...a lot of re's lately.

Seems like when we're younger it's about what we will be, that's where the focus lies. The older I get the more I value how I feel, am I happy? Am I fulfilled. Truth of the matter is an occupation alone will not get you to these places.

The question that keeps popping us is this: what is the value of the risks I am taking?

In a way, I think I've been measuring it wrong for me. I don't want to spend a year taking risks for the sake of risks. I want to take a step everyday towards my ideal life. So the challenge I am posing to myself, and you if you'd like is this: what can I do today to make me happier?

This is what I am risking. I am risking secure for happy. I have no idea how I am going to do this. But what I love is that this project is changing me. I am about sixty days in, and I am changing.

Not the crash diet type of change, where you lose those last five pounds only to replace them with ten more. I am talking about the type of change that comes when you change your lifestyle. Bear with me...that's what I am doing.

But risk does pay: I received an email the other day from Ascent Aspirations, a print and online journal where I submitted my poetry - which was one of my first risks...I am getting published in August!

I will post a link up to the site when it goes online!

All it ever takes is putting your cards on the table. I am just trying to figure out which table I want to put my cards on. I wouldn't have been able to get here though without all of your kind words and encouragement.

Thank you.