Day 38: Grown-Up-hood...

Okay, so not a real word, but a real thing.

For some reason I was thinking about how much I have changed in the last decade this morning, and even with the lure of less responsibility and worry; I still wouldn't want to go back in time.

There is more stress as you get older, with more obligations and questions, true. BUT there's more you when you get older too; and I'm not talking about weight we might put on. When I think back, I can't remember having a clearly defined personality - and neither did most people I came into contact with of that age. Everything about you gets stronger and more pronounced with each passing day. A good friend of mine says that we become caricatures of ourselves when we hit old age. And I get that now, because by the time we hit old age (if we are lucky enough to)we know our strengths and our personalities so well that we play into them.

So don't worry about going back; be grateful that you get to go on.

YESTERDAY'S RISK:

In thinking about creative endeavors, putting them in the realm of creating your life and livelihood around is exciting. And letting yourself change your mind: damn near most liberating thing yet.

TODAY'S RISK: Be Here Now.

That's the title of my favorite Ray Lamontagne song. If you get a chance, check it out. It's also a challenge. It's Sunday, be in the moment day. No thoughts ahead, just here. Present in the present. That's my risk.